Oh, the Irony!

I have been working like a madwoman for the past 10 days.  In fact, while I had this morning "off," as a "reward" for my good behavior, I have to go back to work again tonight, most likely until dawn.  What makes this particularly difficult is that right now, the work is located offsite, about an hour's drive from San Francisco.  So for the last 10 days, I have been working about 16-18 hours straight, not counting the 2 hours drive time to and from the site.  So if you calcuate: very little sleep+very little family time+ very little Emma viewings = very bitter woman.

The irony of all of this lies in the fact that last month, I asked if I could move to a part-time schedule so that I would be able to have more time for Emma and family duties.  Ha!  So here I am, being paid for part time, but doing more than full-time work.  And having to cancel plans, and having my first mother's day as a mother myself being ruined, since I have already been told that we will be working all this weekend from morning till dawn.

I know this post sounds so complainy, but honestly, I can't help but feel this way at the moment.  I know that others say that this is the profession I have chosen, and it comes with the territory.  Hell, I tell myself the same thing, too.  But, somewhere, there has got to actually exist this elusive notion of balance between work and life.  I guess the good news is that this is only temporary and the end is in sight.  Once this passes, I will (I hope) be on my part-time schedule and have more sanity in life.  I am crossing my fingers.